Sabbatical

I have clearly taken a bit of a blogging sabbatical. I don't think it was intended; in that time, I even met one of my dear baby loss mama friends (Christy) and her daughter Avery. I just have been caught up in life.

It has amazed me how much Alice has helped my heart. It will never be fully healed, I will always think of Madeleine and miss her terribly... But my heart tries to protect itself now. I still have occasional breakdowns, but my mind won't let me go there often, it resists. I know that isn't healthy, and it makes it harder when I do fully mourn, but sometimes it seems the only way to go on without curling up into a ball. I don't want Alice to suffer because I am damaged. I am already so protective, and that isn't fair to her. I want to do them both justice.