I've been having a blogging drought lately.
As far as Alice goes, things are amazing and wonderful and she's perfect. Things obviously have their imperfections (like the reverse cycling she's doing right now), but I'm so amazed and blessed to have such a perfect baby. I sometimes just look at her and cry from her beauty.
I feel like I've already touched on all of my words for Maddie. It's just hard and it aches and it's dull, right on my heart. I can't change it, and I can't make it better. There's not much new or different to say - it just hurts, and it will forever. Sometimes I have insights into my own feelings, but they're just that. Sometimes it feels so weird to share them, it feels like I'm assuming they're important to others when they're just mine.
I don't really know where I'm going with this. I know April is an awful time for a lot of my friends, and my heart goes out to them.
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7 comments:
So get you, Ang.
I mean, it gets to the point where you just keep going through these nasty cycles of grief.
Sometimes I feel like I NEED to blog-to make contact with you all that get me-but in general, it feels to me like you said-we've touched on all our words.
Alice is perfect and beautiful. So is Maddie.
Love you, friend.
I was thinking of you when I wrote this, C. We are just going through the same things over and over, forever, in a lot of ways. We just want our babies, no more, no less.
Love to your beautiful Sophie, Aiden, and Avery. <3 Love you, too!
I am so sorry...I know this is SO hard. My daughters 2nd Birthday anniversary is coming up on May 3rd and I am so emotional these days. Part of me just wants her back, but I know that can't happen...Some days I know this will never really get easier...
Thinking of you... you're such an amazing mum to all your gorgeous little ones xoxo
Always thinking of you and loving you friend... drought or no drought! ;)
I feel like I am neglecting Jonathan sometimes because I don't post about him, but there isn't much more I can say. When you get out of that "raw" stage you just start to feel the same cycle of feelings over and over. Nothing new. Like you said...we miss our babies...nothing more nothing less. It just hurts more some days and thats the cycle of grief. *hugs*
Love your blog and thank you so much for all your kind words since I started blogging... it's been lovely to start sharing this journey with you. I've awarded you a Stylish Blogger and/or Versatile blogger Award :)) Follow the link below and join in the fun this Easter :) Love always xoxo
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