I'll be five weeks pregnant tomorrow. I'm only a week and a half out from getting to hopefully hear my baby's heartbeat, and I should get to hear it twice in one week. My OB wants to see me at 6 weeks to do an ultrasound and make plans for the cerclage, so we'll see him on 12/2. I then go back to my RE for the 6 week ultrasound the next day on 12/3.
I hate these stretches between appointments, because all I do is worry that something is going to happen. I worried about it when I was pregnant with Maddie, and I know now what can happen. At the same time, I realize that there really isn't anything I can do to control this - I couldn't be much more high-risk if I started juggling fire for a living, so there really isn't anything tangible I can do to make this much better. I wanted to micromanage and over-research everything when I was pregnant with Maddie; now I realize that it doesn't make much difference. This is in God's hands now. Just hoping that it's His will for us to have a healthy baby come next July.
Friday, November 20, 2009
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I remember my worry before my 1st u/s. I emailed my dr everyday with some concern. I basically convinced myself that there wasn't a baby in there. I get it. I hope the next week and a half goes quickly. There are so many of us due in May- July who are doing cerclages. And, I vowed not to research anything anymore. It just makes my anxiety worse. My best!
I just want you to know I'm thinking of and praying for you. Although I'm not quite to the "pregnancy after loss" stage, I can only imagine the many, many emotions you are facing as I have played in my head several times what it will be like.
(((hugs)))
It's so hard to be left wondering about everything for a stretch of time. I hope your week goes quickly and you see a strong little heartbeat at your next appointment.
Bree - whew, that makes me feel better that I'm not panicking irrationally. :) I didn't realize there were so many of us doing the cerclages until I started going through blogs again! That's awesome to have a community of us! Thank you so much!
Heather - you're such a sweetheart. You're so right - it's pretty much exactly what you expect. Joy, sadness, guilt, fear - all of what you'd expect.
Donna - Thank you so much! I keep checking in on your blog for birthing updates! :)
oh I hope that too... praying
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