21 weeks and 1 day - Breathing (for the moment)

Whew. We had our ultrasound today, and all is good. Better than good - fantastic.  I’m 6w4d gestationally, and measuring 6w1d (so right on track). Heartbeat was strong – 120 bpm. Everything went so well that they said that I don’t need to go see my RE tomorrow for the ultrasound there – we just made an 8 week appointment there. It was such an amazing moment to see the heartbeat, after I was so very worried – I cried (as I always do), it was just so beautiful. I won’t breathe until I’m holding that baby in my arms, but seeing the heartbeat brings the rate of miscarriage down under 5%.


My consult with the perinatologist is on December 17 (same day as my next u/s at the RE). I will indeed be doing a Shirodkar cerclage, so I feel really relieved. You know, I was thinking about it – throughout my life, my goal has always been to have as few people as possible see my business end. I want to go to Heaven being able to say that I really had the least number of people possible who could possibly discuss that part of me. After all of the fertility treatments over the past four and a half years, pregnancy, and then the process of losing Maddie – I’ve kind of decided to start a tally from here on out. Obviously the list will be incomplete, but I’m sure it will be distinguished.

In the interest of that – oh, look, here’s my uterus! :)